All of this started with a certain event that happened to me when I was sixteen years old. For awhile my family and I used to live in a really small portable trailer in the mountains of Colorado. On this particular night, everyone had gone to bed besides me. When I finally decided to go to bed, I remember laying there watching my breath reflect out of me into the moon.
I laid awake for awhile until my eye’s finally closed and I passed into “sleep”. Except I was not sleeping, I felt like I was real but not really there in my own world. I was falling down a black pit, for lack of a better word. And I felt like I was falling for hours. Next thing that I remember I fell into what I felt was a icy bottom of water. Except that it wasn’t water. It had the texture of oil. Then came a voice, it spoke to me in tone that was a mixture of water rushing and a gentile breeze. It sounded from all around me and inside my head. What I can never forget is the feeling of dread, hopelessness, and a sense of being lost inside whatever was happening to me. I cannot say how long this actually happened for because my memory after that night became blocked. Detrimental to a point where I felt like my sense of “reality” is really compromised.
When I finally awoke I really believed it was all a terrible nightmare. When I finally got back to bed, it all happened again except there was no falling this time. I was right there again with this liquid cold voice entering my head. I remember it telling me that I would never know peace and that there was no point in fighting the things that would happen to me. At some point during the night I awoke again. I remember saying to myself “just another night terror” like I used to suffer really bad episodes of.
After this night finally ended I realized things were starting to change. I now suffer from horrible cases of rage, points to where I can be harmful to myself and loved ones. I feel like there is a growing presence inside me. I have trouble sleeping well at night for fear of what will happen to me. I can see things I never could before, like shadow people and strange blurs from the corner of my eye. If I walk around at night I always feel like I am being followed by ghostly presences. And the worst… I no longer feel like I should be around other people for their safety, like I can no longer know what love or friends are. I fear for myself.
I have been to many doctors and therapists. I have even done a brief time locked away in a mental institution. I don’t know who to turn to anymore. I really contemplate the idea of suicide as the only way to end this, because everything so far has failed me. If anyone out there can help me in any way, please let me know. I have all but giving up that little bit of hope I have left for myself.
Sent in by Jared, Copyright 2011 TrueGhostTales.com
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Hi Jared
Don’t even think about suicide, it seems you have a dark presence attached to you or maybe even possessed. Not sure what your religion or faith is, but you can overcome this. For starters bless your home with holy water or sage. Turn to God and pray. If you read through alot of the stories here you will learn alot. Again, suicide forget it or you will end up in this dark hole forever.
Do not let this thing beat you. Turn to God and Jesus, this is your way out. They are the only ones that can help you . and your self and prayers from all of us. Let me tell you this when you pray, Call out to our Father Jahovah, and ask him to send his angels to protect you, make sure you call him by his name, and that is his name. And ask Jesus to come into you and help get rid of this thing. build your faith for positive thoughts. you believe in your dream and that is how come you are having this happend to you, but you can change that , all you have to do is cahnge you feeling about this and make your self feel better. and when you pray make sure that you speak it out. good luck and i will pray for you.
Hi Jared,
My heart goes out to you – your are one ‘torchured’ soul. But you can take control back from the ‘demon’ within.
You must, nowever, learn to fight it. Fight the desire to hurt others as well as fight the desire to kill yourself. It takes an awful lot of courage, strength of character and determination to ignore the rage from within – but you can do it. I have faith in you.
Everytime you get these negative thoughts, push them out of your head and replace them with love – thought os whatever makes you feel happy and contented and safe. I’m not going to lie to you – it won’t be easy but, the more you push those rages out and replace them with possitive thought, the easier it will get. In time you will master the ‘beast’ within. In time you will feel much more in control. In time, it will leave you.
All the best and keep fighting
AJ
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i will say your experiencing a possession of some sort. i may be wrong.but they devil has always got to use negative thoughts to get to a person. and by what i have read you have let this thing get to you. your giving this thing power over your life. dont give it anymore. take back your life! tell this thing in jesus name you have no power over me. read psalms 23 and psalms 91,until u believe it and are able to say it to the opposing force! and another thing dont be fearful they love the smell of fear its like blood to a shark. you do these things and get yourself blessed by a priest or preacher you should be ok. keep us informed