He Likes My Pain
I’m fifteen years and it still won’t go. Since the age of 3 this Shadow Creature (or at least I think that’s what it is) has been there. In the corner, the mirror, watching me in the shower, through a window… it touches me, talks to me, tortures me. I scratch at my arms close my eyes pull at my hair. I beg and beg it to leave me be and it won’t.
When I was three I vividly remember it standing over my crib and mumbling, it reached down and petted my hair, I screamed and it left. My parents thought I was crazy from then on. Sometimes I think I am. It plays games, it walks out of the corner of my eye knowing I can see it but not truly showing itself. It no longer leaves when I scream it no longer goes away. I’m so tired and exhausted. It even went as far as to follow me to school once.
Its attached to me not at locations. I’ve gotten rid of everything I’ve owned since then and it hasn’t left. I’ve tried and tried. I’m at my limit… I just don’t know what it wants. It takes different forms and mumbles to me… I ignore it and it mocks me.
Once when I was 7 it was Christmas and I was at my Grandmothers, I left the room and it showed up, followed me wherever I went. I was terrified. For hours it seemed it would come closer back away mumble reach out but then pull back. I clung to my dad and prayed but no one could calm me down and it stayed.
At 10 I was in the woods alone and it ran at me over and over again howling. I ran and ran until I made it home and then it was silent as it watched me.
Another time a few months later it came trying to get me to hold its hand, to trust it but I wouldn’t and it got angry and left. I can never understand any actual words from it.
Tonight it sat there and watched me, petted my arm and mumbled, I understood a word for the first time, it was mumbled and low and incoherent but I hear one word clearly… love… does it love me or my pain? Did I do something to attract it… I will do anything to make it leave. I’ve apparently done a lot to keep it here by looking at it and interacting even if it is to tell it to leave… I really need help here… I think my mom and dad think I’m insane at this point. I need help… I need someone to help me. Its here now… I’m scared… I can barely type, I really need help.
Sent in by ScaredSince3, Copyright 2011 TrueGhostTales.com