So this may be a little jumbled, but I’m going to try the best I can to get it all out.
I don’t really remember my childhood, except being teased and left out all the time. I went to a private school up until 8th grade, so I had a lot of love for God but I had dabbled into the Ouija a few times. I remember this one time, my friends were playing the Ouija while I watched, and the Ouija kept telling them “her.. its her.. its her… get her out” and all this crazy stuff.
That was when Lucifer started to follow me. I would see him standing in corners, in windows far away.. I could feel him over my shoulder constantly. I never really put two and two together until about a year ago.
After that year in 7th grade I started falling into a very deep depression. It seemed to get worse and worse and worse. I don’t remember one time in my life of me being happy. It’s like all of my childhood memories were completely erased, filled with only facts, and replaced with the sense that I was a mistake.
I don’t remember specifically selling my soul to the devil, but I know I must have done it more than a few times. Each time not getting what I wanted. This past year was the worst for me. I would wake up in the middle of the night with demons surrounding me, choking me, pulling me around. (Some may say this is merely sleep paralysis, but I know it was something way more than that) My depression got even worse. I had multiple plans to kill myself, but someone always managed to get me out of it.
I don’t remember any of it, and my friend told me very few details. She said I was speaking in tongues, I would hop around and scratch the floor and scream in different voices at the same time. I remember one point, where she had taken me outside for some light.. and there was a bush on fire. I just kept bowing down to it.. over and over again.. speaking to the devil. She told me I would sing ring around the rosy and all these other creepy things. She had called a local pastor to help… I suppose it must have worked, but I never felt like it was completely out of me… just like I always felt like it was always in me. He said when he asked who I was, I referred to myself as Lucifer. (who is the one that follows me)
I was playing with the thoughts of being a child of Satan.. and reaping the rewards. On August 30th I attempted to take my own life. My liver was failing, but they brought me back. I was sorry for what I did, but there’s that cold dark part of my heart that wishes it would have been a success.
I decided to play the Ouija a couple more times since then, each time being scarier than the last. One time we contacted someone from my local town, but we weren’t there.. He said he had followed me and had hoped that I could help him. He told us that I was the chosen one and that what I would do would be a lesson for everyone. Other than that it was always Lucifer contacting me. Telling me he had something for me. The feeling of him sitting on my shoulder never went away, and sometimes it got to the point where it felt like he was crushing me.
One night I was with a bunch of friends in the middle of nowhere, at this old Native American park, trying to contact some spirits. Of course. Lucifer was the only one to show up. I could feel and hear him stalking me around the car. It sounded like there were more of them though. He told my friends I needed to get my gift. Just say it one more time and I would get my gift. They asked what he meant, as I had no idea. He just kept saying that I knew. I knew. I immediately had a sense of longing. All of my past thoughts and ideas of being ugly and such rushed back into my head and I wanted desperately to have him take it all back and make me pretty and have friends. I didn’t tell anyone about it, and I hope to God that I didn’t sell my soul for the last time that night.. but ever since than I have looked at myself in a completely new light.
On the side of all this, I have dreams of helping little children to where they belong. Dead little children. I have dreams of doors closing in on me and lights flickering out. Dreams where I cannot speak, just like the experiences I have had. I have a sensitive.. sense… for… I don’t know. I can tell when something is bad, like an aura I suppose.
I don’t know what any of this means and I just want answers.. I don’t know how to handle any of it. It feels like I’m just fantasizing about being a medium, and I guess if that’s what this all means I hope it would just.. happen already.. but I highly doubt it is. I don’t think I’m that gifted… it feels just like I’m… more than the average human.. (actually. I’ve always felt like I never really was human.. like an angel/demon.. I don’t tell many people this because they all think I’m nuts the way it is). I do know that I am not afraid of it anymore, and that I’m ready when He is. If anyone has.. any…help for me. that’d be greatly appreciated.
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He will be there aslong as you let him to! dont get use to it…. and they will harm u as long as u let them stay with u.. really WAKE UP GIRL…. its ur soul get rid of that…you should put attention to LDsgirl….
Well, i have never touch the Qu-board, had temptations, cause it seemed to be fun.(fun yes, but scary) Never thought anything evil would come from it, but for some reason some good energy has kept me from it, directing me not too….. by people exposing there stories and advice. It pretty much freaked me out! I do believe in God, and jesus died for our sins and etc…. I dont go to church, cause i dont believe you have to attend church to acually HAVE FAITH IN GOD or keep it. Mind over matter. I have my ways and god knows i loves him and when I screw up, which is majority of the time. LOL I feel remorsed and assamed. But I know Im forgiven when I ask or pray, sometime I fall asleep w/ out, but I feel bad when I do that even. Anyway, I just want to give my opinion on some of the issues that were mentioned through out this website. I read all of them, 100 of them! very curious…. insightful sometimes. So, like I was saying….. ( on the main story of the website) quote: My friends were playing the Ouija while I watched, and the Ouija kept telling them “her.. its her.. its her… get her out”…….. I just wanted to give the same adivice basically everyone giving you. First off, I wished you had known about dabbling with the dark side of a Qu-board. probably would of phycologicially helped out, and possible had you not communicated with some paranormal acitivity. Thing would of not been so bad. Just normal life problems, and depression everyone goes through. with a little help from god and some faith, would of pulled you out of those hard times. but dont give up chic, there is help and people who care, for insinst the writers on this website.
“There is always light at the end of the tunnel”, my mom told me growing up…. just stay focus on the light and it will guide you. ( I’d say look into your soul, that you beleive is corrupted by something evil, ( I do believe there is a evil lurking around) and in jesus name, christ lord, command that demon odf such to leave, bind the depression and the haks of ITS lies. Do not trust in the that did not give birth ( created) your soul. I really pray that this is a new and bright beginging for you, and if you think you have channled into something more then a normal human, well use those in a positive way and direct them to became somthing pure and good. Im not a doctor or even go to school for this, i just read alot and fascinated with the paranormal, but not enough to get myself into trouble. God, I feel warns me or my own gut, LOL I do believe its a higher powere helping with my judgement, even though its teribble at times. but yes, try to look torwards the positive and restrient from the negitive, demons and devils feed off that ( the weak) only the strong will survive the fight ( the battle of the under world)…… beware of fake prophets also! people claim to be god or you know! your smart, its time to do the right thing…. god bless you. May god take mercy on your soul, he will forgive you. jsut believe and be strong. Love Ashley Drinkard ( thats my real name and Im 26 yrs old, I know Im young but trust me, I have delt with my own demons with in) Its will be harder for you, I know and Im sorry, its not going to happen over night, in a day or month, it could take the rest of your living life. But the rewards of being holy is better then the pits of fire, were your non living life will be hell for entenity. not to scare you… a little dramatic, sorry, but its no joke and stay away from that board, even if you know how to use it!
Again, I will pray. and god bless, I will say right now, IN THE JESUS CHRIST, OUR LORD SAVIOR I COMMAND YOU TO BIND THESE DEMONS THAT CURSED HER LIFE AND VANISH ! IN THE NAME OF THE LORD SAVIOR AMEN… I dont treat this as a joke, dont live in a life of fear. thats what it wants you to do! This come from my heart. Dont be destracted by the devils evil ways! turn your cheek and demmand it to leave. You have to want this from body and soul or it wont work. one thought maybe thought i like this will not work. Just do it, start today!
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( My fav poem) Footprints in the Sand
One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord. Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand. Sometimes there were two sets of footprints, other times there was one only.
This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life, when I was suffering from anguish, sorrow or defeat, I could see only one set of footprints, so I said to the Lord,
“You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you, you would walk with me always. But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life there has only been one set of footprints in the sand. Why, when I needed you most, have you not been there for me?”
The Lord replied, “The years when you have seen only one set of footprints, my child, is when I carried you.”
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(Now, i want to opinionate on the mental illness issues)
(look up the definition of scitzophrania….this sounds like the sypthoms. im serious)
I was diognosed with adhd and borderline w/ scitzophrania, but thats what my doctor said when i was like 12, but now 26, there is know way Im scitzo… I have adha or whatever. but I think everyone is specail in there own way. ; 0 )
Serious man, Whether u keep faith on god or keep faith on ur self BUT U SHOULD ALWAYS KEEP A STRONG FAITH U CAN WIN THE EVIL AND GLOW IN LIFE. EVERYONE WISHES FOR U ME TOO MAY U GET FREE OF ALL UR DIFFICULTIES THOUGH THEY ARE INVISIBLE INVINCIBLE IN DESTRUCTIBLE U WILL WIN THANKS FOR SHARING UR EXPERIENCE.
Yes please contact them, I’ve seen spirits and felt their presence. Yes they do scare me but I go to christ.I’m on christ side. Don’t let them in.
just pray girl… never let him have you…
Believe always in God… Be strong… have faith…
Your soul is what it needs…
Always pray the Lord’s Prayer if ever you see or feel him!…
You can do it! Bless you…
If you have an ouija board in your home you need to burn it. You’ve opened a portal to something evil. When you burn it never touch another one again
You need Jesus my friend, He is they way, the truth and the light.
One way to find out if you are really possesed.
you won’t be able to say the ‘our father in heaven’ prayer.
I’m not reiligous in anyway, but i am very spiritual in the sense of earth and the afterlife..
Jesus, god cannot help you.. im sorry to say.
Getting a exercist can well, make is wrose. I beleive every word that you say because rarely, stuff like this does happen.
But i don’t think is lusifer who is the one fallowing you, just probably a strong demon.
sorry for the bad spelling!
whatever you do DO NOT BURN THE OUIJI BOARD because you have opened a portal and allowed Demons through, but if you burn the board you cant close that portal !!!!!!!!!
uuhhh……… JESUS CHRIST is the ONLY one who can help you thru a preist,a medium,etc. You might could contact Chip Coffee or Paranormal State Investigators
LDSgirl I’m LDS too
Hey she’s right, go to http://www.mormon.org, and to the nearest LDS church. It’s gotta help eh! You have the power, come unto Christ and command the evil beings to depart! Take care. I hope you win the battle and have a good life afterwards. :3 God bless, and happy trails! Kuva \|/
You need to come to Christ for real. First repent, and turn away from all your sins. Go down the list and be specific with the Lord. Let Him know exactly all of the sins that you are turning away from. Seek a true relationship with Christ. He is not looking for religion from you, he wants relationship with you.
Honestly, dabbling in occultism (the ouija board) is a slap in the face to Christ and for what he personally did on the cross for YOU.
You have given Lucifer an open door into your life. He wouldn’t have as much access if you didn’t allow it. That’s the bad news.
The good news is that there is a way out. Once you repent, and turn away from ALL of your sins, you are now beginning the process for God to step in and wipe out all demonic forces that have had a hold on you for so long.
Next, get a Bible (New Living Translation. . . easy to read) and read it DAILY!!!! This will begin the process of delivering you from oppression from Satan, worldly and anti-Christ thinking. . . so important.
Get to know Christian people that you can trust and go to personally for guidance and counceling (Through a good Bible based church, Christian counseling, etc.)
And very importantly, set aside a time everyday to talk to God Himself and spend time with Him. He doesn’t need to hear you repeating quotations from the Bible in order to please Him. He is very pleased with even the most childlike, earnest prayers. Your prayer time with God is where Lucifer CANNOT reach you.
So when you see Lucifer again, get in “your prayer closet”. . . he will flee. Your “prayer closet” is anywhere you decide to pray and have conversation with the Lord. Rebuke him in the name of Jesus Christ. . . BE BOLD. . . he will flee!
I know all of this because I came to Christ in 2004. . . I live this.
Right now, I pray the Lord begin to do a beautiful work in your life. That He give you a new, tender heart that is like Jesus Christ’s. . . That He remove all wrong, sinful thinking from you. I pray that God renew you, and give you a right Spirit. . . God’s Holy Spirit. . . that you realize the Truth that you are in no way ugly, and that you are made a new & beautiful creature in Christ! I pray that you will be immediately set FREE! And anyone that is free, is free INDEED!
I don’t know your name, but God made you personally and know’s EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU, and the work that He’s waiting to do in you. . .You just have to allow Him to do that for you.
“Dave” who replied to you was ABSOLUTELY RIGHT.
Christ is your ONLY answer out of this one.
In Christ,
Alecia
Oh yeah, once you come to Christ FOR REAL. . . GET RID OF THAT OUIJA BOARD!!!
Come boldly before God’s Throne, without fear!
So hes here isent he. I mean CONGRADULATIONS on sort of reliving ureself from him for a while i mean.Well heres a little question for ya WHO IN THE WORLD INVENTED THE OLJA BOARD SHEESH!!! because of that thing demons have been given permission to walk the earth. Oh well just keep a bible near by, some crosses, couple bags of salt, bottles of oil, holly water ofcourse get a priest to bless them and clense your house.spread the holy oil on wooden furniture, holy water everywhere, salt in windo outline plus doorways too, hang the crosses in every room, and read your bible and youl basically be fine for a couple years.
good luck
youl be fine
keep your faith
ill pray for ya
Angel
(giggle)
OK YOU NEED GOD IIN YOUR LIFE, GOD CAN GIVE YOU MORE THAN WHAT THE DEVIL CAN EVER OFFER. IM A CHRISTIAN AND IM HAPPY! PLEASE TURN TO GOD BECAUSE IF YOU DONT YOU MIGHT HAVE SOME THINGS YOU WANT IN THIS LIFE BUT YOU WILL NOT ENTER THE KINGDOM OF GOD! YOU WILL INSTEAD SPEND ETERNITY IN HELL. GOD LOVES YOU NO MATTER WHAT AND HE WILL FORGIVE YOU
YOU JUST NEED TO ASK, ASK HIM INTO YOUR LIFE AND THOSE DEMONS WILL LEAVE YOU ALONE. SAY TO THEM ” go away on the name of Jesus christ!” AND THEY WILL!
I WILL BE PRAYING FOR YOU!
believe me when i say the devil will do anything to get your soul he even tried to get jesus to bow before him by telling him he would give him all the kingdoms all the gold in the world but he didnt what im saying is all the ritches in this world that satan will offer you isnt worth spending a never ending time in hell
Believe me when I say you have been possesed by one or multiple demons .I know this because I have fought demons on a big scale and with the help of Jesus and his angels I prevailed and took my life back.He tried to take the life of my daughter too -he didnt succeeed , Remember – each demon has a purpose , when one is finished he makes way for a stronger demon . You allowed Satan in , you opened a window – a gateway and they are pouring in. To take control of your life and oust the Devil you do the following , this is the ONLY way but you must have courage and faith .Go into EVERY room of your house and pray – pray psalms 91 with intention. Take olive oil and make the sign of the cross anywhere in the room saying the words – THE BLOOD OF JESUS – THIS IS IMPERATIVE.Finally go to every door – front and back sand do the same.TELL ME WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU DO THIS THE FIRST TIME.
I know what I am talking about about because it took all my reserves to fight and survive them – the last demon that could not look me in the eyes was a WEREWOLF – he looked at me from my garden turned into a sparrow and flew away.
I pray for your soul and that you may be delivered , may Jesus urround you with his magnificent angels and guide through these troubled times.”He shall deliver thee from the snare of the Fowler.”
AMEN
First, I would see a psychologist to see if anything that you experienced can be explained. I had a similar experience, and it turned out that I had bipolar disorder. I was depressed as long as I can remember and have seen demons since I was four. I’ve never played with an oujia board, so it might not be a disorder.
If what you are experiencing can’t be explained by the psychiatrist, then go and seek an exorcist.
Tell me how your feeling, and let me know how your doing and the steps you have taken.
I feel drawn to you, i want to help.
I know you read my colum. WB.
you do have to be very careful about talking to docs about these sorts of things… they always have thier scientific names for it……. i have learned to keep my mouth shut around the docs…….. the few, very spiritual people that i ahve known in my life, have either passed on, or are ill….. so,, i have a heard time trusting , just anyone on giving me advice, i would have to know them very well……
i do enjoy coming here, as it helps me get through the day!!!! and, i do learn a lot at times.. but, i have to be careful what i absorb…..
take care all,,, ktm
I’m going to be honest with you…..and your never going to get rid of that demon untill YOU. Give ur LIFE to GOD put ur worries in his hand and he well always be there for u…..in order to get out of the darknes u have to walk into the light and the light is GOD……I’m going to tell. …you something I was possed by a demon myself my mom is christian and prayed for me but tell this day he keeps coming back…..but please try to take my advice….and help yourself…you have freewell and lucifer has no name to you nor your soul only your creator GOD
DON’T EVER burn or damage a Ouiji board in ANY way. If you want to get rid of it (and I suggest you do) cleanse the area and have a professional, I repeat PROFESSIONAL, close the opened portal! Then toss it. When you let those thoughts get to you, those demons (both mental and physical) it DOES make things worse. I know it’s easier said than done but you need to use your will power, positive energy, and study all…I mean ALL of your resources out there. Not to be offending to religions, or anyone’s belief. But you need to find a faith other than in dark, shadowy, malignant forces. study all types of religions and use your integrity, I know you have it somewhere in there! you are a capable, beautiful, strong woman and you can defeat this evil, win this battle!
Raven,, i agree,, use a professional, for sure… there are many want-a-bees out there!!! ktm
People keep saying that the board is a portal. YOU POSSIBLY could be a portal. I have been using my board for many years. As long as you know how to use it, there is nothing wrong with it at all. I made mine and have never had a problem with it. Oh, you can burn the board. It’s ashes will just go back into the Earth.
rereading the post,, how do you sell your soul to the devil???? i would think that would be a memorable thing!!!!!
We all own our Soul. Not god and certainly not the devil as that entity does not exist. I agree with KNOWTOMUCH, it would be quite memorable if it did happen!
thank you Nec…. i am still wondering,, how in the world would you sell your soul to the devil,, and mutiple times,, i would think that once would be enough…. does anyone have an answer???
I have given my soul to God,, that was my choice…..i have known, many bad people in this world,,,,,, i mean,, all you have to do is watch the news.. did they sell thier souls to the devil,, or,, did the devil , just take it, because they where bad people?????
And really,,,,, woundt we know better than to sell, or give our souls to the devil???? i mean,, whats the point???? why???? i have heard this said before, but never understood it……
I would think, that if the devil had your soul,, he would use it to make you powerful, in a bad way.. maybe this is what many of these killers and rapists have done…. who would want to be that type of person??
I understand, that when we are young, we are inflluenced by other young kids, that dont know any better either.. i know,, i was once young myself….
Nec.. maybe you are right about the Q. board,,, maybe we are the portals.. i really dont know,,,,,all i know is,, i had some bad experiences with the board as a kid,, and i never touched it again.. but,, that was me… could have been a portal in the house i was living in, as it was haunted,, for sure….
i do know this,, once you give your soul to God,, evil lurks all around, just waiting for the chance to get ya!!!!!! but,, i feel that God has always had my soul, and i wasnt raised in a religious family…. i have always had the strengh to battle ,, evil………..
so,, anyone have an answer?????? ktm
What you have described sounds very similar to somthing I experienced and am still dealing with to this day. So much so that I believe it is the exact same as what happened/happens to me to this day. My only solace has been in Faith. Only in my faith have I found any peace. I was posessed, I saw demons, and I fought them after a fashion. I still feel the fear tha come from them being around. It is a fear that is akin to the fear of death of existance. I will never forget the feeling of when they are around. I got to the end of my rope with all of the things that were happening to me and my friends. I had tried everything. I tried psychics (who rejected me and feared what they felt when I came around) and priests. I finally did some research of my own into what was happening. I ran across a book called the Lesser Key Of Solomon. I read the book and researched what it was talking about and referencing. I did actually use the book to an extent. I never was albe to completely get rid of the demons I had attached to myself over the years but I did learn who and what they were. That knowledge in itself was enough to put a stop to what they were putting me through long enough for me to get my Faith back. I believe I was lead to that book because of the seriousness of what I had done. I even died for what I had done, literally. I believe that knowledge is a power all in its own right. And I do agree with necromancer that you should learn all you can and try to find your faith in somthing other than a demon. It may be hard to find but there is proof all around us of what is really going on and who is really in control.
heyyy,
ash.drinkard,
dat is lyk the best poem eva,
it waz used @ my grandfather’s funeral.
i luvv dat poem,and can neva forget it .
anywayz,god blesss,good story .
luvv alwayzz.lonergrl=)