This has been happening to me since I was 4 years old or at least that�s how far back I can remember it happening. I have always been plagued by horrific evil nightmares, but they seem so real I really do not believe that they are nightmares at all especially when I am still awake when it happens.
This only happens when I am alone. I�ll be in bed ready to go to sleep and then all of a sudden I’m in this “state.” I don’t remember falling asleep and when in this state I am in bed in the same pj’s, thinking about the same things I was when I was awake. I�m completely consciously aware. I start to feel this evil presence in my room and the feeling of evil is so overwhelming that I can�t move. It is positively horrifying and terrifying.
Sometimes I see a dark murky cloud or shape hovering above me or my bed starts shaking or I’m being levitated off my bed. Sometimes the demon attacks me but it�s not like it�s hurting me physically but it feels like it’s attacking my soul or trying to get inside me. This does not seem like a dream to me. It seems so real and I am paralyzed by fear. I can�t move or scream. Then I snap out of it and I’m still lying in bed eyes wide but can still feel the evil in my room and sometimes still see that dark cloud/shape above me. It’s still there as I’m running across my room in near hysterics.
Or, once I was lying there with my eyes closed and heard someone walk up my stairs, across my room and then felt them sit down on my bed. (I was thinking that it was my boyfriend) I opened my eyes and nobody was sitting on my bed and then I started feeling that evil presence and then I swear my bed started shaking.
I am now 33 years old and have been plagued with this my whole life. Sometimes I am scared to go to sleep and always sleep with a dim light on because it always come in the dark if I am alone. It’s driving me crazy!
When it happens I think of God and say the lords prayer over and over but it has never helped. In fact, it makes it angrier and attacks me even harder when I pray or think of Jesus.