True Ghost Tales

All of this started with a certain event that happened to me when I was sixteen years old. For awhile my family and I used to live in a really small portable trailer in the mountains of Colorado. On this particular night, everyone had gone to bed besides me. When I finally decided to go to bed, I remember laying there watching my breath reflect out of me into the moon.

I laid awake for awhile until my eye’s finally closed and I passed into “sleep”. Except I was not sleeping, I felt like I was real but not really there in my own world. I was falling down a black pit, for lack of a better word. And I felt like I was falling for hours. Next thing that I remember I fell into what I felt was a icy bottom of water. Except that it wasn’t water. It had the texture of oil. Then came a voice, it spoke to me in tone that was a mixture of water rushing and a gentile breeze. It sounded from all around me and inside my head. What I can never forget is the feeling of dread, hopelessness, and a sense of being lost inside whatever was happening to me. I cannot say how long this actually happened for because my memory after that night became blocked. Detrimental to a point where I felt like my sense of “reality” is really compromised.

When I finally awoke I really believed it was all a terrible nightmare. When I finally got back to bed, it all happened again except there was no falling this time. I was right there again with this liquid cold voice entering my head. I remember it telling me that I would never know peace and that there was no point in fighting the things that would happen to me. At some point during the night I awoke again. I remember saying to myself “just another night terror” like I used to suffer really bad episodes of.

After this night finally ended I realized things were starting to change. I now suffer from horrible cases of rage, points to where I can be harmful to myself and loved ones. I feel like there is a growing presence inside me. I have trouble sleeping well at night for fear of what will happen to me. I can see things I never could before, like shadow people and strange blurs from the corner of my eye. If I walk around at night I always feel like I am being followed by ghostly presences. And the worst… I no longer feel like I should be around other people for their safety, like I can no longer know what love or friends are. I fear for myself.

I have been to many doctors and therapists. I have even done a brief time locked away in a mental institution. I don’t know who to turn to anymore. I really contemplate the idea of suicide as the only way to end this, because everything so far has failed me. If anyone out there can help me in any way, please let me know. I have all but giving up that little bit of hope I have left for myself.

Sent in by Jared, Copyright 2011 TrueGhostTales.com